Opening up
Friday, August 24th, 2007Right then I said this right at the beginning that I was going to use this blog to get some of the things out of my head when I needed to so here we go.
At the moment I have two things that are causing me problems with my OCD (which I’ve had under good control recently), they are Death and Religion.
Death doesn’t bother me really. I’ve always been aware of the mortal nature of my physical existance, it’s just I’ve recently become aware of the fact that the end might come before I’m ready. It’s almost like now that I’m happy with my life and I’m beginning to make the most of things that it’d be a real bugger for it to end soon. Not that I’m anywhere near the end of my life (I hope!?!?!) it’s just something that keeps rattling to the front of my mind.
I’ve come to the conclusion that all I can do is make the most of every day that comes my way, end of.
Religion. Now there’s a good one. The question it forces you to ask there is no proveable answer for. Only peoples beliefs, peoples theories and conjecture. Scientists cannot answer all the questions that come up when you try and prove that God does not exist, and on the other hand the religions of the world can often be contradictory and lacking in clarity.
I have tried being Athiestic but it doesn’t work for me, I have experienced too much of a spiritual nature. That said I have yet to find a religion that allows me to be me whilst supporting it’s point of view.
That said I enjoy church, whilst not agreeing with everything it says. I have got envolved with helping out with some things there (which has comes from my boys envolvment with the scout activities based there) and I enjoy it.
It’s one of the few places in modern society where you can go and be nice to people and know that people there are being nice because they choose to be not because they want something from you.
I have major questions which no-one has the answer for such as….
“If in heaven you’re surrounded by those you love and care for, does that mean that your ancestors/friends that have died without belonging to your chosen/given religion will be there, or are they just missing?” If the latter is true I’m gonna be lonely on the other side if I subscribe totally to any religion.
“How can God (and by this I mean the Christian God) hand out hardline judgement on those who sin and yet be all forgiving?” Surely he can’t be both, and it everything is forgiven then why try and live by religions rules? And if everythings forgiven people like the Yorkshire Ripper, Hitler,Pol-pott and other thoroughly nasty people will all get into heaven – how can that be right?
So what’s the point of this entry? Well it helps me get things straight by putting then down in text, it allows my friends an insight into my condition and makes me feel better knowing that my honest opinion has been expressed.
I welcome any comments on this by anyone who reads it.
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