I have had an interesting life so far. Interesting in both the positive way the word is used and intresting in the sense of the oriental curse “may you live in intresting times”!?!?!

 I’m not going to go into massive detail about my ups-and-down right now but what I do want to go into is the subject of counseling/therapy. I have just read the book “This Monster Lives” by the guys who made “Some Kind Of Monster (which for those of you who don’t know is the documentary that covers the turbulent making of Metallica’s St. Anger album) and I felt the need to write something here.

I can, to some degree, relate to the problems the band confronted during the time the book/film covers, particularly some of James’s  issues (although unfortunately having to cope with the trappings of being a super rich metal musician is not one of them).

The counseling I have received has been absolutely brilliant. I have learnt valuable things about myself that I would never have had learned alone. This blog is one of the off shoots of this process. One thing that comes out of the book (I’m not sure about the film as I haven’t seen it yet -hell of confession that for a matallica fan such as myself!?!?!) is that the best way to get on in life is to confront your problems and deal with them as best you can.

You are rarely as alone as you think you are and people can be alot more understanding than you’d think.

Also the thing that I’ve found is that (to paraphrase from the book) the universe has a way of speaking to you through the events that happen.

At my lowest time recently when I was struggling with my condition I was reconnected to someone very important in my life. The realisation that I was not as alone as I felt, coupled with (as always) the love and support of Su & my boyz, at this time not only helped me conqour some of my problems but also build better relationships with other friends that I’d previously drifted away from.

The two biggest things that I have learnt is that as long as I am honest with myself  I will be ok and also that communication, whether it is with the person who you spend your life with or the friends and family miles away, is one the most important things.

To some it up, I am happy with my life, I can see now that without any of the things that have happened it would not be as good as it is. Call it kharma, call it the wyrd -whatever you want to call it , it’s smeggin’ excellent! :-)

Rock on, live hard and die well!

Gaz

 

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